You also shouldn’t try to control your kindness. If you are giving it away because you hope someone else will find use from it… Then that is the end of your need to control it. They can sell it and use the money to buy shoes and or other things they need or want.
The point is that OP wanted to be kind in a specific way and would rather enrich themselves if it couldn’t be met. Thats not kindness.
You also shouldn’t try to control your kindness. If you are giving it away because you hope someone else will find use from it… Then that is the end of your need to control it. They can sell it and use the money to buy shoes and or other things they need or want.
The point is that OP wanted to be kind in a specific way and would rather enrich themselves if it couldn’t be met. Thats not kindness.